When you look back and really wonder about how on earth you are where you are. The answer is always God is mercifully guiding you. In my case, Hosea 6:1-2 is the story of my life.
2009 was a solid year……
1) I found out I was going to lose my job about 3 weeks after I got married.
2) I had jobs lined up and 3 weeks before my last paycheck, both jobs called me letting me know they couldn’t hire me due to lack of tithing.
3) The ONLY offer that stood was for a church plant. Which if you are used to working for established churches, doesn’t seem like a great job to agree to 4 months into your marriage.
Seriously, what was I to do.
All Erin and I could do was pray. Our God is a big God. He gracefully saves his people, and will gracefully provide. (By the way, if you think praying during this time is an easy task, contact me so I can tell you first hand how hard praying actually is)
Let me tell you about how big my God is….
Over the past 7 months, besides my leading for the usual camps and events through the summer, I’ve been helping churches out. Some friends of mine, and in most cases, friends of friends, have been calling me needing a worship leader or a service or for a couple weeks. I’ve led worship for 12 churches I’ve never played at before, and some never even heard of. Their stipends have been the only thing keeping Erin and I afloat.
Doesn’t end there…..
God hasn’t just been providing us with money to pay our bills, God has also given me something else I desperately needed. Through the past months, God has blessed me with new friendships with many pastors in South Florida. Honestly, I don’t know where I would be right now without their guidance.
God also gave us a great church home. Coral Ridge Presbyterian has been our church home now for the past 7 months. I can’t begin to tell you what I’ve learned, not only practically and theologically, but what I’ve learned about the gospel and how the gospel applies in life. Its great to read books about it, but to hear it first hand from my friend Tullian has been a great joy and privilege. Brandon, their Director of Worship, has been a great friend and mentor. Without the both of them, I don’t even know where Erin and I would be.
God also opened the door for the church I grew up in, FBC Pompano Beach, to ordain me. They have been really gracious with me and put together an ordination council consisting of a couple deacons, the pastors at FBC, and a few dear friends of mine. I passed the exam and my service will be January 10th 2010 @ FBC Pompano.
On top of all those things. One day back in October, my wife sat me down and said, “Jimmy, I think God is mercifully guiding us to plant that church”. I started to think through all the events that started in January. I lost my job, no jobs opened up, the only offer that stood was a church plant that was launching in 2010. Through prayer, Erin and I decided, planting Crossway Church is what God wants us to do. Moreover, its what God caused us to do. If only you knew the joy I have now in my ministry with Jon, the senior pastor of Crossway.
Here is how the gospel applies in this…
God’s “bigness” has nothing to do with his capability to provide me with worldly possessions that I claim I need, but has everything to do with his grace.
God has the right to tear me down as much as he pleases. I have sinned against him! He is a rightesous God, one who must punish sin. Here is the best part: I have no right to being built back up. Because of my sin against God, my only right is death and Hell. For I bear the indignation of the Lord, until he pleads my cause (Micah 7). But our God is a loving God. One who shows grace to his people. He, by his own sovereign grace, decided he was going to built me back up. Why? What did I do? My actions just drive me more and more away from God, but his grace brings me near to him. That is election, and I humbly worship God everyday for it.
I am humbled.
I am currently living in Hosea 6:1-2.
“Come, let us return to the Lord;
for he has torn us, that he may heal us;
he has struck us down, and he will bind us up.
After two days he will revive us;
on the third day he will raise us up,
that we may live before him.”
-Jimmy
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